Today: Psalms 42:6-11; Luke 12:1-34; Deuteronomy 9 & 10
“Why are you in despair, my soul? And why are you restless within me? Wait for God, for I will again praise Him for the help of His presence, my God.” Psalms 42:11
David wasn’t afraid to expose his fears and struggles. He recorded them, raw and bare, for all to see. But through all of David’s struggles, one thing we never see is doubt in his God. Even in the midst of his most difficult times, he still trusted and praised God.
“Do not seek what you are to eat and what you are to drink, and do not keep worrying. For all these things are what the nations of the world eagerly seek; and you Father knows that you need these things. But seek His kingdom, and these things will be provided to you.” Luke 12:29-31
Craig and I have tried our best to follow God, to be obedient to His guidance in our lives — even something as radical as selling all our property and moving across the state. We’ve got that obedience and faith part right.
But we were trusting in our own finances to fix this situation, to replace what we’ve sold with something equally comfy and plush as what we’re leaving. Yesterday it seemed as if that security blanket we’d been trusting in might be ripped out from under us. Today looks a little bit different. But I struggled through a difficult 24 hours of complete uncertainty. Still nothing is certain. And I think that is exactly where we are supposed to be right now.
It has been an interesting journey. God is forcing us to trust HIM, trust His plan and not our own. What a blessed position to be in!
This hasn’t been easy. I don’t want to imply that I just smoothly shifted into this position of trust, because I didn’t. I have shed many tears in the past couple of days, afraid, throwing a spiritual temper tantrum.
But like David, I did not doubt in my God. I did not blame Him for my unhappiness. I worked through my fears (for now anyway) and wound up here in this place of submission and trust and PEACE.
And it feels really good!
Deuteronomy 9 & 8
Although the Israelites were very imperfect, still they trusted God enough to follow Him around in the wilderness for forty years. They trusted Him enough to leave their homes in Egypt and go out blindly into the wilderness without any plan except to follow God. They trusted Him enough to go into the promised land against giants and powerful adversaries. They messed up a lot along the way. But they still did it…