Welcome! Thanks for stopping by. My first full length book, “My Demon, My Jesus,” is now available CLICK HERE to get a copy. ~ Blue.

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“This book is brilliantly and intelligently written. The rich descriptive adjectives, figurative and literal language, sensory elements that this book offers, rocks my literary world and inspires me to have bigger faith in what is around us and what is to come.”

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My Demon, My Jesus: Delivered from Demonic Oppression & Suicidal Depression; Brought Back from Death Into Victorious Life, Divine Joy & Visions

A near-death experience, a botched suicide that worked… then didn’t.

God had another plan.

“My Demon, My Jesus” is a Christian memoir about the author’s struggle with suicidal depression and how she conquered her demons.

At 30 years old, Blue Tapp attempted suicide by swallowing a handful of sleeping pills. Her spirit left her body before she was brought back to life in the hospital. Blue is alive today because God miraculously saved her life. Four angels appeared and helped her call for help before she died.

However Blue’s battle with depression was far from over. She spent the next three years addicted to prescription medication under the care of a psychiatrist. But pills cannot cure depression.

Today Blue is completely free of depression and medication. She has learned the keys to living an amazing life of joy and victory. ”My Demon, My Jesus” describes her healing process through meditative prayer. Others who suffer from depression can follow these same steps to reach true lasting healing.

Blue’s healing was miraculous. But it was not instantaneous. It was a process of learning how to think in a healthy way, how to shift thought patterns and spirit life from defeat to victory. Blue’s journey will help others climb their way out of the trap of poisonous thought patterns and prescribed drug addictions. There are so many people fighting this battle…

Blue’s story took another extraordinary twist in 2019. She began experiencing astonishing visions where her soul was taken to heaven to pray for the world with millions of other saints. Today the visions continue weekly with messages from heaven. God wants us to know that He loves and cares deeply about each one of us. He wants us to know Him intimately. All believers are being called to join with the saints in praying for our world, for a great awakening that will draw multitudes of people to the heart of God.

One of God’s charges was to write everything down, every vision in detail. As she did this, a connection became apparent between the visions and her own life journey, from her early experiences of demonic oppression and suicidal depression to eventual miraculous healing. The visions about God’s love were a message of hope to everyone battling depression.

So she’s told it all… from a demonically oppressed disturbed child who also fell in love with Jesus and prayed to become a Christian at six years old…to a suicidally depressed young adult who overdosed on sleeping pills and was brought back from death in the hospital…to years addicted to prescription drugs…to miraculous healing, victorious life, and divine visions. Don’t miss this incredible true story!


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2022 has been a year of failed plans for me… one disappointment after another… some very big ones. It’s been tough to work through. I even struggled with depression for a bit.But I wouldn’t change a single iota of this past year even if I could!I am truly thankful for every foiled plan. Here’s why…When my plans don’t work, when life doesn’t turn out like I hoped — that is EXACTLY when my faith and trust in God can grow.When OUR plans work out, we are tempted to believe we did it ourselves. When OUR plans succeed, we can get away with thinking that we accomplished it through our hard work and expert planning skills.When nothing turns out the way we want, then the actual truth smacks us in the face. We are not afterall in control of our own destiny. We are not God. The universe does not revolve around us.THIS is when we get to practice that faith muscle. Do we believe that God is in control? That He knows and loves us? That He really does have the best plan for us even if we don’t understand it? Even if it is contrary to our personal preferences?My favorite Shakespeare line was delivered by Hamlet, “There is a divinity that shapes our ends, rough-hew them how we will.”Profoundly true! As much as we work to fashion our own lives, our very best attempts are nothing more than amateur ragged sawings on the end of a dead tree. One disaster reveals the truth of it. A car crash, a hurricane, a cancer diagnosis… Even the best laid plans are susceptible. We do not control our own fates.Only Jesus is the master carpenter.If we step aside and surrender to His divine sculpting, we grow. We access that peace that surpasses understanding. We delve into boundless joy that isn’t connected to our external circumstances. We are healed and delivered. We become more like Jesus.So I’m learning to be thankful when my plans fail. I would never wish to trade who I am NOW for who I was before all the disappointments. I am stronger now. Wiser. More mature in my faith. I am THANKFUL! ... See MoreSee Less
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But ask the animals, and they will teach you, or the birds in the sky, and they will tell you; or speak to the earth, and it will teach you, or let the fish in the sea inform you. Which of all these does not know that the hand of the LORD has done this? In his hand is the life of every creature and the breath of all mankind.
Job 12:7-10


About Blue Tapp


Blue Tapp is a writer, artist, photographer, musician, and homesteader. She has an A.A. in Fine Arts, B.A. in English, M.A. in English Literature, and completed Ph.D. coursework in Rhetoric & Composition. She has run her own website development company, Blue’s ArtHouse Graphics & Web Design, since 1997.

Blue writes inspirational nonfiction and speaks about seeking God through meditative prayer, healing from depression, and deliverance from demonic oppression. She is available for speaking engagements and podcast interviews. Email inquiries to bluetapp@gmail.com.

Blue and her husband, Craig Scheffer, live and homestead in Blue Eye, Missouri, where they raise chickens, ducks, rabbits, and sheep and grow their own food. Follow their homesteading adventures at hermitsway.com.

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