Be Still

Defeating Depression Through Meditative Prayer

In 1997 I killed myself.

My disembodied spirit floated through hospital corridors. I watched from the ceiling as ER medics pounded on my chest. But God had a different plan and my soul blasted back into my body.

Today I am completely healed from depression. You can also defeat depression! Be Still: Defeating Depression Through Stillness tells my tangled journey from brokenness, prescription drug addiction, demonic oppression, depression and suicide to healing. I describe my meditative prayer process and show you how to also seek wholeness through stillness.

We have become addicted to our ever-present thought chatter. It fabricates the narration of our days, critiquing the people around us, noting offenses, bludgeoning ourselves for perceived flaws, worrying about the electric bill, planning our weekend, assembling our shopping lists. What if we could just make it stop? Stop for a blessed few moments of internal silence? Ten glorious minutes of peace? Taming the incessant babble of our brain is the secret to the deepest joy. It is a key to spiritual awakening and growing closer to God. It is the key to a victorious depression-free life.


But ask the animals, and they will teach you, or the birds in the sky, and they will tell you; or speak to the earth, and it will teach you, or let the fish in the sea inform you. Which of all these does not know that the hand of the LORD has done this? In his hand is the life of every creature and the breath of all mankind.
Job 12:7-10


About Blue Tapp


Blue is a writer, artist, photographer, musician, and gardener. She has run her own website development company, Blue’s ArtHouse Graphics & Web Design, since 1997.

Blue writes inspirational nonfiction about seeking God in the wilderness through meditative prayer. She has just completed her first full length book, Be Still: Defeating Depression through Meditative Prayer, a memoir about her death experience, healing and spiritual awakening.

Blue and her husband, Craig, live on an off grid homestead in Southeast Missouri. Follow their off grid adventures at

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John 8People who are not that familiar with the Bible often say that Jesus was only a good teacher who never claimed to be God. But this is absolutely not true. Jesus claimed to be God many times, including in John 8 when He told the Pharisees, "You are from below, I am from above; you are of this world, I am not of this world. Therefore I said to you that you will die in your sins; for unless you believe that I am, you will die in your sins." (v.24)When Jesus said, "I am," He used the same words God used in Exodus when He revealed Himself to Moses at the burning bush by saying, "I AM WHO I AM." (Exodus 3:14-16)And just in case the Pharisees missed it the first time, Jesus says it again, "When you lift up the Son of Man, then you will know that I am..." (v.28)The true meaning of Jesus' words might get a bit lost in translation for US. But His Jewish audience would have understood exactly what He meant. Jesus was claiming to be GOD. He also laid out the way to salvation when He said, "...unless you believe that I am, you will die in your sins." (v.24)Jesus made it very clear. He WAS God and we must believe He is God to be saved. I do believe it!! ... See MoreSee Less
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