My disembodied spirit floated through hospital corridors. I watched from the ceiling as ER medics pounded on my chest. But God had a different plan and my soul blasted back into my body.
Today I am completely healed from depression. You can also defeat depression! Be Still: Defeating Depression Through Stillness tells my tangled journey from brokenness, prescription drug addiction, demonic oppression, depression and suicide to healing. I describe my meditative prayer process and show you how to also seek wholeness through stillness.
We have become addicted to our ever-present thought chatter. It fabricates the narration of our days, critiquing the people around us, noting offenses, bludgeoning ourselves for perceived flaws, worrying about the electric bill, planning our weekend, assembling our shopping lists. What if we could just make it stop? Stop for a blessed few moments of internal silence? Ten glorious minutes of peace? Taming the incessant babble of our brain is the secret to the deepest joy. It is a key to spiritual awakening and growing closer to God. It is the key to a victorious depression-free life.
But ask the animals, and they will teach you, or the birds in the sky, and they will tell you; or speak to the earth, and it will teach you, or let the fish in the sea inform you. Which of all these does not know that the hand of the LORD has done this? In his hand is the life of every creature and the breath of all mankind. Job 12:7-10
Blue is a writer, artist, photographer, musician, and gardener. She has run her own website development company, Blue’s ArtHouse Graphics & Web Design, since 1997.
Blue writes inspirational nonfiction about seeking God in the wilderness through meditative prayer. She has just completed her first full length book, Be Still: Defeating Depression through Meditative Prayer, a memoir about her death experience, healing and spiritual awakening.
Blue and her husband, Craig, live on an off grid homestead in Southeast Missouri. Follow their off grid adventures at hermitsway.com.
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It all comes down to our attitude. Two people might behave identically but one is motivated by law and the other by freedom. The first person is trying as hard as they can to do all the right things and obey all the rules using their own willpower. The second person enjoys a deepening relationship with the Creator of the Universe. Outwardly, they may both act exactly the same. But the first person is miserable and the second person is full of joy. The goal is not learning how to be perfect. The goal is learning how to walk in FAITH.
I choose freedom!
We just can’t do it. Perfection for us wicked, stupid humans is impossible. That is the whole point. It was the point of the 10 Commandments and the Mosaic Law. It was the point of the whole Old Testament. It was the point of the Sermon on the Mount. God knew when he dictated his laws to Moses that the Israelites could never measure up. Jesus never intended for his followers to gouge out their own eyeballs or chop off their extremities. That’s obviously not what he meant…
Finally, FINALLY I had reached the bitter end of myself. And Jesus met me there. He sent angels to save me. He followed me into the depths of hell and carried me back home. I am the prodigal daughter and he is my forgiving father.
40 days is all it took. 40 days it rained and flooded the entire earth fifteen cubits higher than the tallest mountain. 40 days it took to kill every air-breathing living thing on the entire earth except for those safely tucked inside the ark. 40 days Jesus fasted to prepare for his meeting with the current administrator of this planet. Jesus won that battle. And he has also won the war. Jesus is our ark. Within him we are safe from the floods of life and from the lies of the enemy. Within Christ is our victory.
Troubles are certain in this life. No amount of money, good connections, or wile can avoid them. I’d much rather walk through my troubles with the God of David at my side. He is our only real shield from the barbs of life. He is our glory, the lifter of our heads, our sustenance. Only in God is true salvation.
Once you commit to spending time with God every day, and really start doing it, then he’s got you. And that is EXACTLY where you want to be, within his all powerful, loving hands.
Have you made a new years resolution for 2021? I’ve got one for you… I’m challenging you to try practicing STILLNESS. I believe God is calling us to draw closer to him this year. Meditative prayer is one of the most powerful ways to seek God’s presence. It has profoundly changed my life. I invite you to explore meditative prayer with me along with reading through the Bible in a year. I’ll be posting reflections from my daily meditations, Scripture readings, and weekly videos on my Facebook Page. Daily Bible readings include an Old Testament and New Testament reading plus a Psalm or Proverb. Today’s the day… New Year’s Day! #BeStill
I am mesmerized by the forest… by the intricacy of life in the woods. Every square millimeter teems with fantastic variety — mosses, insects, flowers, grasses, mushrooms, trees. Even the rocks are filled with ever changing life. Only the most magnificent God could create all of this from nothing. Woods are my worship. And my worship is simply to be astounded at how awesome is our God.
After lunch we decide to take a photo walk through the conservation area next to our property. The walk there is a shadeless section of the old log road that runs by our cabin. It is a messy mix of sticky mud, hard red clay, large rocks, and huge gulleys where the rain has washed it away. The road is difficult to walk on; the gravel shifts and slides under our heavy muck boots.
How I would love to be the eagle soaring peacefully above the harried torrent and worries of the day. How I long for such strength and wisdom. Instead I will probably always be a little awkward swallow, trying to fly too high for my weak little self, flapping furiously and ineffectively against the tumultuous winds of this life.
This plan takes readers through the entirety of Scripture in one year, including readings from the Old Testament, New Testament and either a Psalm or Proverb each day. Combined with a daily commentary from Nicky and Pippa Gumbel, this plan guides us to engage more closely with God’s Word and encou...